There are more lights on the horizon than there were when I was a kid. And the sky was darker then. Many times I've lost myself in self-hate and denial of truth. Of course! Life never happens the way I think it will. Is the future here? Is this real? And when I've stared at this computer screen for enough hours, I start to feel small. And I forget that I have a body that can move.

I remember feeling this way when I was young.
oblivious to scale, my heart is a planet.
I lie down and my head swells.